Impossible to slow down?
It’s Saturday night. It’s been a week since I’ve been back to work full time. This week, I did all sorts, with the one constant task which I’ve returned to every day being a new product booklet that we are hoping to have ready for the upcoming Spring show season. I feel like I cannot settle down to work deeply for very long. Either there is an interruption in my day brought on by one of our people, or the interruption is due to my inability to concentrate and my apparent need to bounce my mind around. But who doesn’t need a break periodically when staring at a computer screen and trying to wrestle multiple creative elements onto one cohesive page? Then I also feel like the product booklet should not be taking so much time to complete. But perhaps I simply overestimate how much work I can get done each day or week?
After supper at home, I’ve worked on the Wilde Treats website. Here, I have tremendous fun. Building websites or e-commerce stores is so much fun. At least the architectural part of it is so much fun. Sometimes I think I would enjoy running a website design firm. But really, doing the architectural web design would be the fun, not doing all the necessary administrative work. I also feel this to be true at work. It is the creative work that I crave (especially web design) and not the laborious admin work. I’ve sometimes felt like a mother when doing admin work. At least in the sense, that I am indispensable and so much energy is being sucked out of me. I’m sure there are people in this world that thrive on admin work.
Some days I feel like trying to slow down is futile. I work 7 or 8 hours at work and then come home to work on a website. Effectively this makes for a 12-13 hour workday. I don’t know. Then I have more and more ideas that continually rush into my head. More product websites to build. More things to sell to customers that I would enjoy using myself. And on and on… I need unlimited amounts of time and money and a general manager who would happily do all my admin work so I can go on my website building adventures. Good night, and happy new week!